Hello again!

Well it's been a while since my last post and I hope to get back into writing and sharing my trivial life... okay it's not trivial but I think it's fun and a little interesting. So happy 2016 everyone! I'll be posting soon, like tomorrow!

Happy Valentine's

Well gang we may not all have a Valentine this year but here's my dream Valentine. See you kids around!

Tickle me silly...

Ugh I can't stand it I have been having these sexual urges and it's not cool ha ha ha. I wake up in the middle of the night with a raging hard on and I know if i touch it I have to at least milk it and release. i just don't want to fall asleep in my own cum and get it all over the bed sheets and comforter.

I need to find a bf or a playtoy soon! I can't take this anymore. My porn is becoming non-stimulating lol not really I'm just saying that. here's one for you kids!

It's been a long time and I'm sorry, I'm back! Lets catch you all up!

Well first of 2013 was a little rough and had to just get through and I made it safely to 2014 by closing out with a bang. I have happier than ever I'm setting my goals again and I will accomplish what I set forth to do. Right now I'm currently getting ready for an amazing event called Tantrums and Tiaras: Battle of the Bar Queens. I will representing MO's for this event and I can honestly say I'm not nervous I'm more excited than nervous. I'm still single and NOW I feel I'm ready for a relationship but in order for me to feel confident I need to get wide load butt into the gym lol. So there nothing much has really changed I'm still a workaholic, I drink and I'm trying to have fun with life! So to leave you a bit of gymsperation, a hard-on or something to rub one with I leave you with my dream husband! Luke Guldan NYC Fitness Trainer and Model! Enjoy!

PS I'll be hosting a hunk of the day with hopefully a bio and who they are or I why I chose them as the Man Meat of the Moment...Mmmmm

When I held your hand.....

As I held your hand, I'd forgotten about everything else but you. 

When I held your hand I was only focused on you.

No body else mattered, you didn't judge me with you looks.

You saw me for me and who I am.

My heart skips a beat when I'm with you.

I act the way I do because I'm in love with you.

I still want to know more about who you are. 

I want to hear and know your inner thoughts.

I want to hear your heart beat as I lay my head on your chest. 

When I held your hand I could almost feel your pulse.

My heart was racing, was yours?

When I held your hand, did you feel my love?

When I held you, did you not know how much I do care?

When I held your hand, you meant the World to me........

I'm in love and I can't say how I feel

I'm in love.

I get jealous when I'm not around and you're having fun.
I think about what you do every minute of the day.
I try to please you when you don't even know it.
I worship the ground you walk on but you don't hear my praise.
I have never treated you ordinary and valued your word when speak.
I have been there for you since day one.
I cried when I had to leave you alone.

I'm in love with you and you don't even know it. Better to keep it that way than make it complicated.  Just know I will always be there watching and making sure that anytime you fall, I can scoop you back up and help keep you moving forward....

I'm in love.

Update... 3/8/13

So it's been about a month and a few days since I've stopped drinking and I feel great! My skin looks better and I'm getting much needed sleep. It's amazing. I honestly feel "young" again lol. My next step that I'm taking is getting into the gym more and working out to get lean. Burn the fat then build. I have awesome support from co-workers, my roomies and family, so my transitioning from drinking to no drinking has been relativity easy. So if anyone sees me out at the gym make sure I'm pushing myself and getting it done lol okay pictures to follow soon!