I guess I'm just delusional. I see things, situations, or people and I delude myself into thinking that it could be me. Or it could happen. Or my favorite, "He does like me!". "Pfft... Please boy," I say in my head, "wake up and smell the coffee! Why would he consider you?"
then there goes the conversation. I allow myself to think that some guy maybe interested in me for me. The guys I'm talking about are the guys who generally aren't interested in me.
For instance there was this guy I had a crush, had because until yesterday, I saw him kissing and making out with another guy. I know I should not be surprised, it wasn't like we had anything really going on or were in a relationship. He just turned 21 and I'm almost.... yeah... but still. Eh.. All I know is I let myself think that something could happen. That something was there. Am I the only person that does this themselves? I mean come on, I can't be.
I guess I need to become a Ken Doll in order to attract attention. It's so sad and lame. I don't want to be a Ken Doll, I want to just be Me, Mikey, BGM, Giggles..... Another Day, Another Dollar, A new start, A new day....
1 comment:
I dont like this post :( It makes me sad to hear that you feel this way. You will meet your prince charming one day. He will love you for YOU and he WONT expect you to be Ken doll!!! Byrdy doesn't expect me to be Barbie! Thank God! ha ha!
You will find your Prince Mikey, Giggles, Big Mama Mo, Miguel.. FOR YOU! And in the meantime..... keep kissing those frogss!
xoxox. loveyou.
Post a Comment