A Moment of Time or in Time.... Words are words, it's the manner of which you use them....

For the past few months I have been on this epic self journey of getting back into shape and it's been paying off. Unforgettably I have had self realizations of what I am not to certain people. I had become a little down because of it and it made me really sad. I am writing this passage with  little bit of feeling but it could be written without.

I am emotionally easy and vulnerable. I express myself at all inappropriate moments. I do care for people in amounts that most people can't and will never comprehend. I have been in a "Blue" mood for a few days. I have witnessed friends disappear like I had predicted them to do and even with their reassurances they wouldn't, they still did. I have given so much to those in need never asking in return for anything, and I still don't. I was never nor have I per sieved myself to be perfect in anyway. I am great at what I do for work because of experience I've gained over the years. I am an expert of things that people don't find important. I am an artist in many ways. I have lost loved ones in a blink of an eye with no notice or signs of departure. I have easily lost so much and worked hard to gain what I have and how I can live my life. Each day, every hour, all the minutes are a moment of time or in time. How we live them is always our choice, but with every choice there are, what are considered consequences  effects everyone. Whether it was never meant to be hurtful or mean, each choice has a different effect on everyone you encounter. The words we speak and choose to say to people are as equally powerful. Words are words, though it is the manner of which you use them is how you give them empowerment to build, create, destroy, rip apart long life decisions. Our future is tomorrow, the present is now and the past is what we unfortunately look back on. No matter how hard one tries to not look back the past manages to repeat it self to remind you and teach you.

For all those that read this entry, think, don't react... Listen, don't speak.... Remember and don't forget....
We tend to forgive without thinking through it all. But TRUE forgiveness starts with your heart and your soul first. Can you forgive yourself for giving a dirty look? Can you forgive yourself after talk about someone behind their back and not do it again? Can you forgive yourself treating someone badly for no apparent reason? Can you forgive yourself for thinking that you mightier, better, or superior than someone else? Those that judge themselves to be better than others all have their own faults that are always kept secret.

This entry is not an attack or targeted to anyone. This is more or less what has been my thoughts of late.