Damn it All

Grrr... Normally I'm good at pushing these feelings aside. I never let them take over or control my day. Ugh I'm sick of it right now. I hate being alone. I hate being single. I have no other life than my own to be with. I work, come home, eat, drink, come home, lay in bed alone, it's frustrating. there is no amount of boozes in the world that will drown these feelings away right now. My mind and heart are tortured. I can only think about "what could been's" and "I wish..". I know I have a great life at the moment and I'm doing what I want to do. I just want to share my life again with someone. We go on in the world looking for the right person, each of us with our specifics and wants. Never finding that one person because one thing doesn't fit, everything else is fine but that one thing.... OSG- FML- INTD (In Need of Tranny Doctor)!! Time to grab a beer.....