Beginings: In all our lives, in anyone's life. We all have to start somewhere. My adventure started when I decided to come out to my old roommates in 2000. Had a sexual relation with a close friend, that I had feelings for. Unfortunately it was too little too late by the time I realized how I felt about him. I think back about all the mistakes I've made, errors that I've committed and I swear, if there was any way of doing things differently. I would approach certain situations in a different manner.
The Middle: As I approach, what is considered, to be my middle age and going through my mid-life crisis. I can't help but wonder what it's going to be? In all honesty I feel that I have already gone through my mid-life crisis. At one point in my life I was some what homeless and alone. I had gone through what would be considered a divorce with a loved one. My life is a never ending roller coaster of fucking up and bad choices. Not that I choose to make the bad choices purposely, they just turn out to be bad choices. I guess some of you would say that I have the power to choose the out come of my choices, I kind of understand that, however I can't read peoples minds. I'm not Professor X.
My Ending: In conclusion.... I have no idea what my conclusion will be. I mean would you really want to know how you will die? Do you want to know how you will be remembered? Is there anything right now, in your life you can say that you are most proud of or proud of what you have accomplished? I ask myself every now and then that last question. sometimes it's hard for me to answer. It's hard to take a lot of bad things and see any good from any of the outcomes. I just pray and hope that when it's my time. It's painless and peaceful. I will be reincarnated as something or someone great. You'll see.
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