It's Been a While: Time and Time Again

Well it's been a while since I've written anything on here. It's been a little crazy with work as of late and being able to sit and write has been some what of a chore it's self. I now have two jobs, thank God, both I really love working at.

Lets see... where to really start. I'm still single and hating every moment of it. I am for certain that at some point in my life, sooner rather than later, there would be a man in my life. As for now I must settle for my hopes and wants and Mr. Pretends lol. It's funny to me how days go by and time flies, I never really think of a BF until someone asks about having one. Eh oh well. Moving on....

So I've met quite a few boys between my one of my jobs and a friend. This one in particular who is just a catch. Hawaiian, cute, funny, sincere, and honest. The only real issue is the age. It's not that age is really an issue it's just I know where he is at in his life and I for one will not be the type to hold him back. He is young and he needs to live and do the things he wants to do. A relationship will just prevent him from having such experiences. I know when I was dating Brian, I'm sure it was hard for him to do what he wanted. I had deep seeded issues of things I wanted to do but didn't do them because I didn't want Brian to feel left out. Brian was 17 and I was 22 at the time we met (Insert Pedophile Jokes Here). We managed though for 3 years. I just know that this new One wants to be free, we spoke and had the "talk" already. He will be more loyal to me as a friend than being in a relationship... er well that's what I got out it, I'm sure eventually it will come to me, what he meant I mean.

It's getting harder and harder trying not to want to be in a relationship and enjoy the "Singles Life" but it's getting closer and closer to the damn family holidays and I'm not gonna lie, I want to bring someone home for the Holidays. I work Thanksgiving and I'm pretty sure I'll work Christmas. Though the one thing I look forward to in December are the Christmas Parties and making bad decisions lol. Ha yeah like i have it in me to make a bad decision... um some of you who maybe reading this... Shut it!

Well stay tuned I got some more Gossip for you in a bit.